Open your mouth

She didn’t tell him that she loved him.
She bore each sigh
Each rough goodbye.
Each whispered scorn.

Timed her tears to the rain
made dashes of paint
across her windowless room
Her heart had no time to beat.

She didn’t open like a flower
stayed primly still
her hurt cloaked round her shadow
pristine expression of black

She was still and alone
but it was her lack of voice
that broke her heart.

Open your mouth

A Sinister Mood

Uncertain reason
but hope is in season.
Loop your tired feet
around the rungs of my chair.
Lay your body down
and your soul bare.
Let temperate moods wind you up.
Fill your hands with lust
for  your coffee cup.
Shy virtues, hidden well
thinking you found heaven,
the view from your cell.
Catch my expression
This flipped finger
is getting out of hand.

Daily log: April 26, 2017

* Glasses of water drunk: 0 extremely bad

Glasses of soda drunk : 2 liters. OMG Girl!

*Hours slept: 8.5 vvvg

* Curse words uttered: (Found out hardest worker at work was fired because they eliminated his position sooo…broke a cursing record…pretty sure)

* Book read for the day: Rise of Magic Book 2 Completed. The Elementals: The Head of Medusa Book 3 6%

* Weirdest thought of the day: ” I really want Pain” referring to Disney Mini Vinyl Hades pet character collectible.

* Feeling: Kinda mad about friend being fired. Otherwise kinda good.

* Daily Goals ( Total Win or Total Fail)

Fail: Didn’t complete Truck work as much too busy, but got almost everything done. Semi-fail

Win: Have opened total of 10 blind bags for Disney Mini Vinyls and haven’t had a single duplicate yet. Booya!!

* Weather outside: Warm

*Chatted with: Messenger tweets from Becky, Kazza, and Lori. Taking a mini-break from Facebook.

*Today I:

Watched Pstoyreview video, investigated Tulipop and Night Riders characters (Interesting). Spent way too much time contemplating room layout and making everything tidy.

Read selected works of Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (Favorite Poems Collection by Doubleday books) on page 42.

Daily Emoji:



Collector of collections

I keep myself in very careful check. It has to be this way because I literally love art of every conceivable style. I don’t have rigid standards when it comes to what is art and what isn’t. If someone made it, and its got something clever about it, I’m totally a fan.

This could lead to problems.

See, I am a person who likes things to have a proper spot where it lives. It doesn’t have to live there all the time, but I like it to have a home of sorts. Mostly because clutter can only stay around me if it belongs somewhere. I know, I know, I’m kinda all in my head here.

Since I love art of every conceivable style my list of found awesome is long. Really long.

Like, reeeaaally long.

My dislike of clutter is generally (often) at war with my love of whimsy and art.

So far my inner me, if given the go-ahead, would own the following in extreme abundance:


Wall art (all sorts)

Pillows (art pillows and embroidered pillows)

T-shirts (artist made)

Pottery (vases, dishes, pitchers and bowls)


Kokeshi dolls (wooden)

Momiji dolls (smallest)

Miniatures (especially miniature food, don’t ask)

Vinyl figures (Mini)

Artist dolls (plush dolls, bears and bunnies)




Art glass

Art Nouveau

Art Deco

Stained glass

Sea glass



Blown glass (vases, Art pieces)


Door knobs (used to hold back drapes, on doors, and as wall hooks)

and tins

I would very seriously overdo it in a millisecond… there is such a thing as too much of a good thing.

Some of the things on the list I don’t really own yet. Which is good (my room at my sister’s is tiny).

So far I have:

A huge rock collection. It consists of an entertainment center on its side, covered with a cloth, decorated with candles and generously sprinkled with at least 50 rocks from all over the world. It also have a statue of Naga Kanya, a Robin (named Williams) a screen printed wood block, and a resin encased Dandelion in full bloom. It’s my meditation nook and I love it.

I have a folding bookcase that holds books I’ve received over the years, my Mini Vinyl Disney figure collection (I have 10) and on top of my dresser sits 5 plushes. 2 Bears (Theo and Kai), a Bumble-bee (Bekki Bee), a sock monkey (Socket)  and a mini crocheted Octopus (gift) (Emperor Zerg)

Not too terrible right?

The problem is that given my way (and an increased pocketbook) I’d totally lose my mind, if I let myself. So, I’m working on rules for the future me I plan to be.


#1: Everything has to have a place it belongs. 

#2 Small spaces, little footprint. If I have to dust it, it better be easy to move.

#3 No more collection than a single space can hold (book shelf, wall or bed)

#4 Things that seem less artistic art and more nostalgic toy art remains in my private space, not in my living room. (My study will be AWESOME!!)

#5 Comfort conditions.  Each collection gets a designated area. Textural and comfortable living area. Bold and Sassy kitchen. Nature inspired and soothing bedroom. Study will be nostalgic.

There. I feel better now. I wonder if the dream in my head will ever become a real place.






Is it just me?

Is it just me or does it seem like more body stuff happens as you get older? Seriously.

From age 0-30 I was pretty darn invincible. Hardly ever got sick.

The absolute minute I hit 31 BAM!! Take that puny Bekki!!

This year alone I have:

*Sat too long without back support and messed up my legs (cramping) for 2 days,

*Suffered a major neck nerve compression (hurt like a mother-fucker) 

*Experienced a major nose- bleed

*Gotten an inner ear infection that caused extreme dizziness.


*Tore the muscle in my back from lifting stuff I shouldn’t have lifted (that was all on me that one).


Daily Log: April 26, 2017

* Glasses of water drunk: 6 vvg

*Hours slept: 2 vvb

* Curse words uttered: 400 (all at the computer)

* Book read for the day: Rise of Magic Series Book 1, Completed. Rise of Magic Series Book 2 50%

* Weirdest thought of the day: ” I want a dragon too”

* Feeling: Annoyingly chipper

* Daily Goals ( Total Win or Total Fail)

Win: Got all my tasks completed

Fail: Lifted a travel system, tore the muscle in my back. Yay, idiot.

* Weather outside: The weather currently cannot make up its mind.

*Chatted with: Kazza and Becky.

*Today I: Watched way, way, waaaaay too many clips from the Troll movie. Now I HAVE to see it. Must also dance to Justin Timberlake song privately in my room. Booya! (Obviously will wait until back is better)

Daily emoji:


Someone’s eyes are stuck to her forehead due to, too much coffee.

* Glasses of water drunk: 4 bottles

*Hours slept: 9 vvg

* Curse words uttered: 1 vvg

* Book read for the day: No book today.

* Weirdest thought of the day: I wish my room cleaned itself.

* Feeling: A little sad.

* Daily Goals ( Total Win or Total Fail)

Win: Cleaned my room, whacked my rug outside & did some research.

* Weather outside:

Sunny and very nice.

*Chatted with: Spent the day outside or cleaning

*Today I:

Cleaned. Watched Pstoyreview, Did laundry.

Emoji of the day: