The Valentine Version

I want to break this hurt in half
let the lies spill out like blood
Walk slowly down a forgotten path
slip less in unconventional mud.

I want to skip your hand
and go for your lip
See you like danger tea.
Take a tremulous sip.

Because I do
even though I don’t.
Because you will
Even if you won’t.

I memorized your name
Tossed it like a dart.
Let it land unceremoniously close
to my most trembling part.

Wishing for courage
To direct my feet.
Lackluster paint
But strong beat.

Because I don’t
even if I do.
Because you won’t
even if you will.